7.24.2005

noise noise and more noise

for great justice
since last month the tunnel construction outside of my apartment has slowed down as it looks like it's close to being finished. no sooner could i enjoy my quiet(er) days when i was awoken one morning by an incredible crashing noise.

the folks upstairs decided to renovate their apartment. first step was to knock down the walls. with sledgehammers. at 7am. on a sunday.

i know that construction isn't supposed to begin before 8am, so i leapt out of bed and ran upstairs to shout at them (a very effective negotiating tactic here). i had been out the night before- after 4 hours of sleep and still feeling the effects of the previous night's boozing, i was not a happy camper.

the sight of a barefoot shouting foreigner in a thai singha beer t-shirt and boxers was enough to leave the construction crew in stunned silence. finally one of them said 'ok' and i returned back downstairs.

at 08:00:01 the noise started up again. I gave up and crawled out of bed to watch tv on the couch.

during the week it's not a bother as I'm up early for work, but on the weekends I have no choice but to sleep early and wake up early as the noise is incredibly loud. If the noise was constant then I could get used to it but it stops and starts in the most annoying manner possible.

check it out for yourself with these two videos. click here (2.8mb) first- adjust the volume to the level whereby you can hear the tv clearly. then click here (3.8mb). these movies were taken at around 8am on a monday morning while i was trying to watch the news. enjoy!!!

haitang sunset

take off every zig
flying from hong kong to shanghai this week we skirted the edge of the advancing super typhoon haitang. ride was a bit rough but made for a beautiful sunset. click above for a larger image.

i can see it all
from this great height.
i can feel the sun
slipping out of sight;
and the world still goes on
through the night.

eyes on you

with many thousands of people coming to this blog every day to visit the star wars post i've grown a bit self-conscious. i feel i should write more insightful entries, ones that stir souls, move hearts, and transform lives.

with that in mind, after a great deal of contemplation and careful preparation, i must say...

"Ummm... hi."

7.14.2005

three stories

steve jobs, june 12 2005, addressing the stanford graduating class:

"i am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. i never graduated from college. truth be told, this is the closest i've ever gotten to a college graduation. today i want to tell you three stories from my life. that's it. no big deal. just three stories.

the first story is about connecting the dots.

i dropped out of reed college after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before i really quit. so why did i drop out?

it started before i was born. my biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. she felt very strongly that i should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. except that when i popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. so my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "we have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" they said: "of course." my biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. she refused to sign the final adoption papers. she only relented a few months later when my parents promised that i would someday go to college.

and 17 years later i did go to college. but i naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. after six months, i couldn't see the value in it. i had no idea what i wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. and here i was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. so i decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out ok. it was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions i ever made. the minute i dropped out i could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

it wasn't all romantic. i didn't have a dorm room, so i slept on the floor in friends' rooms, i returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and i would walk the 7 miles across town every sunday night to get one good meal a week at the hare krishna temple. i loved it. and much of what i stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. let me give you one example:

reed college at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. because i had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, i decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. i learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. it was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and i found it fascinating.

none of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. but ten years later, when we were designing the first macintosh computer, it all came back to me. and we designed it all into the mac. it was the first computer with beautiful typography. if i had never dropped in on that single course in college, the mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. and since windows just copied the mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. if i had never dropped out, i would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when i was in college. but it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. you have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. this approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

my second story is about love and loss.

i was lucky that i found what i loved to do early in life. woz and i started apple in my parents garage when i was 20. we worked hard, and in 10 years apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. we had just released our finest creation - the macintosh - a year earlier, and i had just turned 30. and then i got fired. how can you get fired from a company you started? well, as apple grew we hired someone who i thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. but then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. when we did, our board of directors sided with him. so at 30 i was out. and very publicly out. what had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

i really didn't know what to do for a few months. i felt that i had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that i had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. i met with david packard and bob noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. i was a very public failure, and i even thought about running away from the valley. but something slowly began to dawn on me that i still loved what i did. the turn of events at apple had not changed that one bit. i had been rejected, but i was still in love. and so i decided to start over.

i didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. the heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. it freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

during the next five years, i started a company named next, another company named pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, toy story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. in a remarkable turn of events, apple bought next, i retuned to apple, and the technology we developed at next is at the heart of apple's current renaissance. and laurene and i have a wonderful family together.

i'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if i hadn't been fired from apple. it was awful tasting medicine, but i guess the patient needed it. sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. don't lose faith. i'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that i loved what i did. you've got to find what you love. and that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. and the only way to do great work is to love what you do. if you haven't found it yet, keep looking. don't settle. as with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. and, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. so keep looking until you find it. don't settle.

my third story is about death.

when i was 17, i read a quote that went something like: "if you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." it made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, i have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "if today were the last day of my life, would i want to do what i am about to do today?" and whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, i know i need to change something.

remembering that i'll be dead soon is the most important tool i've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. because almost everything that all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. remembering that you are going to die is the best way i know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. you are already naked. there is no reason not to follow your heart.

about a year ago i was diagnosed with cancer. i had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. i didn't even know what a pancreas was. the doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that i should expect to live no longer than three to six months. my doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. it means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. it means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. it means to say your goodbyes.

i lived with that diagnosis all day. later that evening i had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. i was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. i had the surgery and i'm fine now.

this was the closest i've been to facing death, and i hope its the closest i get for a few more decades. having lived through it, i can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

no one wants to die. even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. and yet death is the destination we all share. no one has ever escaped it. and that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. it is life's change agent. it clears out the old to make way for the new. right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. and most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. they somehow already know what you truly want to become. everything else is secondary.

when i was young, there was an amazing publication called the whole earth catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. it was created by a fellow named stewart brand not far from here in menlo park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. this was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. it was sort of like google in paperback form, 35 years before google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

stewart and his team put out several issues of the whole earth catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. it was the mid-1970s, and i was your age. on the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. beneath it were the words: "stay hungry. stay foolish." it was their farewell message as they signed off. stay hungry. stay foolish. and i have always wished that for myself. and now, as you graduate to begin anew, i wish that for you.

stay hungry. stay foolish.

thank you all very much."

7.05.2005

the shanghai maglev

on saturday i decided to take the maglev back to the city after dropping my sister and brother-in-law off at the pudong airport. i've wanted to ride it ever since i moved here but either arrived too late or had too many bags with me.

the arrivals hell
i started at the arrivals hall where there was quite a large mass of people waiting for arriving passengers. to get to the maglev station, one has to take an escalator up to the mezannine floor and walk along until one reaches one of the long corridors connecting the terminal to the station.

world's least exciting corridor
the corridors are rather featureless except for three people movers spaced quite far apart, only one of which was functional when i was there.

parking lot restaurant
tucked away in a corner of the parking lot underneath the corridor is the 'parking lot restaurant'. one can imagine all sorts of culinary delights await inside.

welcome
after entering the station i lined up to buy a ticket. the choices were a 1-way pass for 50rmb or a vip 1-way pass for 100rmb. i decided to splurge and spend the extra 50rmb (us$6) for a vip ticket so i could experience the full luxury of the maglev.

waiting for the train
i took an escalator down to the lower level where about 40 people were already waiting for the train to arrive. there was a barrier running the length of the platform with doors every 10 meters or so. i wandered up and down looking to see if there were any special vip areas or instructions but there weren't any directions for passengers.

the track
the track itself was very wide, notably more so than the one used by bangkok's skytrain.

vip seats
after about 10 minutes the train pulled up. i wandered down the platform and eventually reached the last car which had different colored seats and a separate door attendant. i showed her my ticket and she let me in- into the vip section. i wound up being the only person there aside from a station employee. the sole benefit of the vip section seemed to be slightly larger faux-leather yellow seats. doh!

lights for viddying
above the seats were little airline style reading lights.

maglev video
here we go! pulling away from the station (mpeg - 4.1mb).

maglev video
into the first turn- notice the train leaning into the corner. (mpeg - 4.1mb).

maglev video
accelerating up to 440kph (275mph). (mpeg - 2.6mb).

maglev video
running at full speed (mpeg - 4.4mb). the ride was rougher than i had expected for something riding on magnets- i had a bit of trouble holding the little camera steady.

arrival
arrival at the longyang road station, 8 minutes after departure.

arrival
the longyang road station is in pudong, on the east side of town. from there one must either take the subway or a taxi to one's final destination as there's not much near there.

arrival
there are a few exits from the station. a couple of signs pointed to taxis but there were no clear directions marking which way to go- a number of people stood around near the ticketing area trying to find the proper exit. i eventually followed a group of people over the road and down into the parking lot. those guys in the photo looking in all different directions wound up being taxi touts, trying to charge me 150rmb to ride to my destination, the portman.

arrival
departing in a taxi. (mpeg - 3.9mb). the ride wound up taking over an hour as my taxi driver got lost and had to ask for directions, then took me to nanjing road east claiming it was nanjing road west.

although i really enjoyed the ride, i can't see taking the train again soon as getting to and from the station is a hassle and takes more time than taking a taxi the whole way. am glad i rode it once, though.

7.02.2005

a macro perspective

last month google quietly made global satellite images available on its maps website- it blows away the images available online last year.

from a view of the world, one can zoom in as far as the satellite images will take you, to almost anywhere. the resolution in urban and popular sites is much greater than in rural areas but most of the world is very well covered- amazing!

shanghai from above
this view of shanghai clearly shows the huang pu river as it winds its way through the city. the pudong airport can be seen as a thick white line near the coast.

nantiruj from above
the apartment where i lived in bangkok, nantiruj tower, is shown in the center of this image. there's a pool on the sixth floor which you can see half-covered in shadow. sukhumvit sois 6, 8, 10, and 12 are visible.

the road from chiang mai to doi suthep is a great one for aspiring rally drivers and making passengers car sick. you can clearly see its twists and turns in this image.

this is an incredible view of siem riep, clearly showing angkor wat, angkor tom, and the sras srang reservoir.

there are egyptian pyramids, remote amazon outposts, and strange objects in the libyan desert (what is that thing???).

what can you find?

7.01.2005

back in black

back online after the temporary closure. sorry about the lack of announcement but putting one up would have used up even more bandwidth.

i took the opportunity to change the design slightly and lighten things up. makes things a bit easier to read than the old color scheme.